All my thoughts are messy. As a good Aquarian, I’m really a rational person, but neither my rationality is helping me at the moment. When it comes to my future, career and greatest passion, my rational side explodes and the emotional one becomes a huge monster inside of me.
I think I came to a time when everyone says that you have to make a choice, you know? And that story of “the hardest choices are the most important” is starting to frighten me in a way I didn’t want to. I keep telling myself that everything is ok and that I know what I want to do from today on, but there’s always something trying to stop me, and makes me even worse.I guess my big problem is that I wanna do everything in this life. I wanna become a huge singer, teach some kids, be a flight atendent, travel the whole world, share everything I do with you on my blog, instagram and YouTube channel… I just wanna be happy, by doing everything that I possibly can, ya’ know?
Those thoughts make me confuse because I don’t know if I can do everything, or if by doing one of those things, I end up screwing all the rest.
At the end of the day, I’m just huge mess.
Unfortunately, we live in a world that the status quo is most important. People don’t wanna know if your happy, if you’re doing what you love. They wanna know what is your job, how much do you make on a month, if you live in big place, or on a Brasília case, if you were selected to work on a public service (which here, pays you a lot of money and give you a economic stability).Let me give a little tip: that kind of pressure doesn’t help at all, just makes everything worse. So, if you are that kind of person that put pressure on everyone, just stop it. It’s not cool. Why don’t you help by giving the support that someone needs to make their dreams a reality? It’ll be better, deal?!
The biggest problem is that schools, society, books, even our families…teach us not to dream big, and achieve things that for them it's impossible (of course we have their support, but you know what I mean) – we are taught to make a good income, to have a great position at work, to have stability…No matter the price you pay for that.
I always ask myself on the holidays season: Why do people on the 31st of December wish you all the best life, best moments, great achievements, success and all that "bullshit"…But throughout the year, those same people do not ask you how your holding up, if you are happy, if your life is balanced… I don't get that.
We have to go on the flow, right? WRONG!!! We cannot change people, we can change ourselves…people will think that we are crazy, that this is not safe, what about this? …what if…
We gotta be sure about what we want, and go for it! It's a cliche, but it's true. No matter what people will think. Those same people are afraid of taking a risk.
I don't think you are a mess, cause otherwise I would be a mess as well, however I think the same way, I wanna do a thousand projects at once and be happy the way I think it's healthy to be happy. I'm a pisces, so I guess you get me.
There's always this anxiety around us, but we gotta work on that, everything will fall into place, we don't have to suffer, or rush into things that belongs to the future. We think so so so much that we forget to live in the 'right now'. It's hard cause we have ambitions, but we gotta manage that, otherwise our minds become a messy room and we don't want that.
Regular people always choose the safe path, but we are not REGULARS.
OH MY GOD!! I really want to hug you right now, Arthur!! ♥ I agree on every little thing you wrote, and yes, we are not regulars!! Thank you so much for this, it's really important to know that there are people like you around the world!! I'll keep your message forever!! Thank you ♥