I tried. I swear I tried my best to handle everything. But I guess it get to a point where we have to take a step back and see the things from the outside; where we have to make a choice. And I chose to give up.
People will judge you, will say things to hurt you or to make you feel worse than you already are. But we need to try to block all those negative thoughts, and follow our gut. After all, only we know what we’ve been through, and when is the time to stop.
I have this dreadful habit to do all the things at the same time. I want to study and work and teach and do my things, but I have no time to relax and just live a little. This is why I chose to give up.
For many people, it’s my obligation to handle all things at once, but in my mind the most important thing is to be ok with myself. To be psycologically healthy, and have time to sleep a little. Even to have fun a little, and not think about all the responsibillities I have in my life.
I chose to give up not because I couldn’t do my job right, or couldn’t handle the responsibility. It was only because my body, and specially my mind, couldn’t handle the crazy routine I was inserted.
So I’m here to tell you: it’s ok to give up. It’s ok to cry for help. It’s ok to say that you can’t do it by yourself. It’s ok to take a step back and start all over again. It’s ok.